WHY ME LORD ? (Grace).

Its 5:00 am Tuesday morning, I stand in the middle of my living room, taking in the blessings that surround me. I look down at the hardwood floor of rich maple coloring that I keep so brightly polished. It’s getting chilly here this time of year, so I gaze at the fireplace with its colors of amber and orange, that reflects the fall season I took into view the pretty purple pants and sweater that I kept desperately looking for in my size at Wal-Mart until Walla!!! I found them, and I thought to myself “WHY ME LORD”? Sometimes I reflect on the past, my past. And I forget to see myself as art work, Gods art work. Then he had to gently remind me, your identity is not bound up in what you have, how you look or what you wear.

I keep reflecting on all of the women who I thought were true ride or die sisters, the ones who I kicked it with, because I thought they had my best interest at heart, or that they really did understand me and what I had been through. The ones who I truly loved as sisters of the heart, the ones who dressed to impress when ever we had girl’s night out, and I would think to myself Wow, I’m underdressed. And once gain he gently, I created you, can’t you see that you should see yourself as confident in your identity. Do not compare the inside of yourself with the outside of another woman. Grace is that dress makes you look amazing. I had to think about it, “I’ve been in dark places. I've worn the shabby, torn garments of sin. And then something came for me by Special Delivery! I remember tearing into it like a mad woman, Ahhh and there it was! The perfect size, the perfect garment and it was beautiful, and there was a little card attached that said . . . Paid in full. Nothing is due. I love you, God. And I realized that this particular garment was Grace tailor-made just for me. Sometimes we look around us and think about the past and how we were chained to it, all of our brokenness, the excessive baggage we carried, loaded down with other peoples junk and garbage, and we as ourselves WHY ME LORD? Perhaps it is because he see’s something in us that we cannot see in ourselves. He see’s the greatness, the strength, the wisdom; he sees the faith, the hope and love that is so embedded in our hearts. He has given us Beauty for Ashes. Perhaps we should stop wondering if we are good enough, or if we are acceptable, remember we had that special package delivered GRACE! And we wear it well. Lets embrace our beautiful garment, it’s the right size the right fit, we are his art work, splashed on a canvass of brilliant colors, colors of happiness, and joy, colors that identify us as royalty, that brilliant bold Purple, hues that give life and meaning to all that we are as women of God. We soar above the drama that is presented to us, on our jobs in our relationships, our marriages, our families and yes our friends, or at least those who we think of as friends. But just remember God has shaped us in his image, pressed into beauty and destined for greater, emboldened and embodied with the personifications of Queens. We ask WHY ME LORD? And he replies WHY NOT? ~Indigokiss~